Pain is around a lot in my life. Pain and I go way back. In fact pain was there to celebrate my birth! We’re goooood friends!
I know that pain is just a part of life..life with sin in existence, that is. Yet even with its familiarity in our lives, we all interact with it differently. Possibly the way we interact with it has something to do with what was modeled for us during our childhood. Perhaps it has something to do with our personality. Or perhaps it has something to do with Who or what we’re trusting in at the time.
Pain can be crippling, it can make us forget how to even function. Other times pain, because of its familiarity can seem like an old friend. It’s hard to imagine, but we sometimes even find comfort in our pain. We don’t want to give it up….we hold on to it tightly and protect it like a child holds onto a blankee or a favorite stuffed animal. Other times we hold it by the tail and swing it all around…hitting it on everything possible as if to punish it, yet even then we are still holding on tight, not willing to let go.
We hide behind our pain, perhaps because we are afraid that if the pain truly comes to light that it might reveal something about us that we’d much rather no one know. Perhaps it also might hold us responsible for some of the pain as well.
Others project the pain onto other people in an attempt to literally blame someone else for their pain and maybe even in an attempt to transfer the pain to the other person – kinda like a dog shakes water off her coat.
The reality of the pain is sometimes too much to bear and as we play whatever situation causes the pain over and over in our heads, it begins to envelope us and swallow us up until we can no longer see clearly and can no longer feel anything but the pain. That’s many times when we seek relief from the pain. Relief can come in many forms just like our old friend “pain”. It can come in the form of anger, in the form of alcohol, in the form of cigarettes, or chocolate. It can come in the form of abuse, cruelty, sadistic or narcissistic behavior. However we “act out” it is an attempt to escape the pain as well as a denial that it even exists.
To me this ” friend” of ours no longer sounds much like a friend.
When all along, there is One who want to heal us..His name is Jehovah Rapha. There is One who wants to be our peace…His name is Yahweh Shalom. There is One who wants to be our shepherd…His name is Yahweh Ro’i. There is One who wants to be there for us…His name is Yahweh Shammah. There is One who wants to be our strength and authority… His name is Elohim and Adonai. This same One wants to be our El Olam (unchanging stay) , our Yahweh Nissi, (our banner and defense), our El Shaddai (almighty, loving supply and comfort) , our El Elyon (our sovereignty and Strength) , our Yahweh Jireh (our provider)…just to name a few and barely scratch the surface of who He IS and wants to be in our lives. Through Him alone we can find peace in the storm.
With that kind of love in place, who needs pain? Pain is one defrauding “friend”.
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