I considered this post and the words I’m about to write…whether I should temper my words with a few flowers here or there, or whether I should just let them fall on the paper exactly as they are coming out of my heart and mind….I think I have chosen the latter. So here goes…my rant on relationships….
What is this thing called relationships? What does the word actually mean?
Dictionary.com says it’s “a connection, an involvement, an emotional dependence or alliance.” Websters says: “The connection, dealings, or associations bringing together persons, groups, nations in personal, business or diplomatic affairs.”
Well, there ya have it! Is that what a relationship is? People connected by a certain phase in life? The circumstances of life simply bringing two or more people together to experience a phase or a circumstance in life? Is there more to it, or am I just thinking too much about this? Am I dreaming up this idea that maybe there should be more of a depth to a relationship when it’s not really ‘spose to be there? Are relationships meant to simply be superficial with nothing beyond that? Are they meant to be surface only? … “Hello, how are you? How’s the weather, blah, blah, blah?” If two people are in a relationship are they spose to actually like each other, love each other, be merely aquaintances who aren’t really affected much by what happens in each others’ lives?
The one thing that I thought I had down in life – relationships…I’m beginning to realize that maybe I’m just not very good at it. I think I require too much. In my mind a relationships involves commitment, pursuing, making an effort to connect. In the very least, there should be a desire to actually be with the person. But maybe that’s just me…
Maybe it is just me….maybe I’m the weird one. Maybe I am looking at this all wrong. Why put so much effort into something that only spits in your face and bites you in the behind?
Hmmmm…. words to ponder or a bunch of bologne? What do you think?